I worked on my Lair app today for an hour or so. I forgot what it was like to apply to something. The ever so hard work of glorifying yourself without seeming completely pompous, but unfortunately that's all I could feel. How am I supposed to be Brief explaining my experience in Music/Theater when the greater part of the last nineteen years of my life have been making sure that my experience in Music/Theater was NOT brief in the least bit. How do you make yourself sound desirable without seeming like you are completly self obsessed? And on top of that how do you do it in a professional manor when all you want is your charm to come through?

This is something I'm going to have to work on, but it has to be quick because I need to get this in as soon as possible; before I decide not to apply because of a certain person who makes me want to stay home. Is being in the same place with a person for more than a day too much to ask for?

I added music to my blog page today. I find it exciting. Its not like myspace was where you went to someone's page and instantly you were flodded with their music overlapping your iTunes because this you can turn to click on and off. But I like that what has been on loop on my computer is now another puzzle piece in this thing that is supposed to help me express myself in a way that I hadn't before.

When I was in middle school I would keep journals because I figured when they made my life into a movie some day it would be good for them to have details... but then I realized, all they had to do was talk to anyone who knew me and they would know everything I did with every moment of my day. Not to long ago a friend of mine asked me if I had any deep dark secrets and as I pondered the question I realized that no, I don't. I really truly don't. In some ways I wish I did, someting to make myself more mysterious. But I find that talking things out is the way to go. If you can't figure something out in your own head that is very important, you shoul talk it out and you are certain to find that a friend might have an opinion on the subject that you had not considered before. My close friends have helped me with those opinions this break more than any before and have made ceratin behaviors in my life become crystal clear. It is a great comfort to know that there are people with more knowledge than me out there, because if you know everything there is nothing left to learn and the world becomes very boring.

This started out about applications... wow.